The Tunnel
Julian’s Journal Sep. 2, 2022
“Sometimes I get upset when things don’t go my way because the outcome doesn’t match my vision or imagination but, I most learn to reimagine. We are trained to look down at ourselves and down on ourselves. Before we learn about success, we must learn to be content and love ourselves without it.”
Success is great. I feel that the environment around me is constantly encouraging growth and development. There are various areas in my life that I work on to improve my quality of life. I think when success doesn’t arrive at the time I expect, it is really discouraging and it can lead to me thinking negative thoughts and stopping routines that I need to keep to reach my goals.
I’ve been trying to practice being present and having a balanced outlook on what I feel success is. I’ve come to the conclusion that I want to be in a thankful and present state while journeying to my destination. Forgetting to manage my stress and energy are easy when I’m so focused on the light at the end of the tunnel. Darkness seems like such a bad thing when I compare it to that light and it always seems to imply negativity but, going through a tunnel can actually be a good thing sometimes. Going through that tunnel can be seen as a shield from outside elements and distractions. It can be an opportunity for me to focus and connect to my other senses that I’ve put on autopilot. Light chasing is tiresome and traveling through that tunnel is a way to recharge.
Learning to meditate, pray, practice yoga, journal, and any other mindfulness technique helps me to appreciate that tunnel instead of despising it. Closing my eyes and turning off the lights creates an environment for me to breath in the present moment and really check up on how I’m feeling mentally and physically. Doing this on a regular basis, I believe, helps me to appreciate and love my own space rather than depending on a time and place to give me a sense of satisfaction. It makes the journey enjoyable and manageable, it makes life easier.
